after an extremely enriching/ enlightening/ inspiring talk with harveen, i am ready to spread the PAP (Peiqin's Apathetic Propaganda) in a valiant effort to educate the local masses.

ok sad pun aside, i must say that harv's really one helluva guy who has infected me with his firm beliefs and passion in pursuing his dreams. as he strongly encouraged and supported my decision to go study overseas, something, somewhere deep down in my heart, stirred. yes, the awakening. the dawning of the sacred light. the attaining of full enlightenment! well, you get the drift.

so main idea is to,

just do it! (however cliched that may sound.)

our interestingly engaging discussion ranged from the most serious topics like julius caesar (some analogy abt catching the tide at the right timing in order to ride the waves to the peak before the moment is gone in a big dismal whoosh!) to the lighthearted "fucks!" (as in fuck the singaporean mindset la! or fuck the old-fashioned aunties uncles la! etc) peppered all over the place.

together, we formulated a self-improvised quote:

"practicality is the enemy of fun."

and since it is universally agreed that seeking happiness is the ultimate goal in one's life, there should be no reason as to why anyone shouldn't be just doing what he truly wants to.

and since regret is the most awful feeling ever, there's simply no time for all the could-have-beens or what-ifs alright. the only way to get the answers to these burning questions is to go experiment for yourself! that's how life should be lived.

what irks me very much is that which is innately singaporean - just follow the system, do what is right and nothing can go wrong:

PSLE --> O levels --> A levels --> NUS (law/ medicine/ engineering)

but wait a minute, since when is happiness factored into that dreadfully utopian equation? happiness is derived from the process of living the moment, not from the end product as many may perceive as the 5 Cs obtained. in fact, happiness comes with discovery, it comes with the thrill of not knowing what's gonna come next and living on the edge whilst clinging on to that undying sense of adventure within you. it is not at all to do with worrying about or meticulously planning the future all the time.

come on, we're only young once.

so i have firmly decided. dilemma no more. since i am fortunate enough to have very open-minded and supportive parents who also incidentally have the resources and ability to send me a'packing overseas, what for hesitate? am just gonna grab the chance and go mans.

why stay in spore when i am damn well aware that a local BA cert is actually equivalent to toilet paper - unappreciated and undermined. and the sad truth is that the arts faculty in nus is being treated like the dumping ground. blardy sad. why can't people geddit into their thick skulls that there are talented arses out there who go into the arts not cause of lousy grades (to hell with them!), but cause of lofty aspirations of becoming renowned writers/ artists/ playwrights/ directors/ musicians etc? these are the occupations which are truly enviable and extraordinary. (unlike the usual boring jobs that bankers/ lawyers/ doctors/ engineers stick to.)

yes i would not be doing justice to my very soul if i were to remain in the same stale environment where practicality reigns supreme and which i have been stuck in for blardy 18 years of my life. there is a bigger and whole new world out there fer me to see, hear, feel, taste and smell! i would never be contented as a pathetic frog in the well.

plus, nus open house was too much of a turn off. i hated it. thought i might be able to put up with jc life (amplified by perhaps a hundred times) all over again. but who am i kidding? the next four yrs will be a drudgery. i know i deserve better.

so, to those out there who're still in a dilemma abt what to do with your lives, quit thinking and just follow your heart (for once.)

you deserve the liberation.