after nearly four blardy months of trying, i despairingly found myself back to square one.

am suddenly yearning for vertigo - the insuperable longing to fall. (weakling! disgrace of womankind! loser!)

fuckit mans haha it's been eons since i've been like this.

btw black sabbath's been working fer me. to quote Navarro, "Sabbath Bloody Sabbath is rebellious and dark and wicked, but it's also gorgeous."